Is there a light at the end of this tunnel??

Do you ever just feel like life is a little out of control?  That’s kind of how I feel right now.  There are so many good things going on right now but there are some things that just don’t seem to be going all that well and it really affects everything else in a way that can get so discouraging.

Part of the problem is that life is just too busy.  I miss the days, back when my kids were in elementary school, when we spent a few hours on school and then we had time to play together and do other things.  I miss the simpler form of homeschooling where I could sit down with my kids and really spend time teaching them new concepts and going over things with them and having fun learning.  It’s not that we aren’t doing any learning now but high school is just a little bit different and a little bit more intense than elementary school. 

We are also in a homeschool group that meets once a week for classes and we have loved it but this year it’s starting to wear on me.  I really never thought I’d say that either.  Last year if you’d asked me I would have told you I might just keep going even after my kids graduate!  Now, I know that will definitely not be happening.  I’m not even sure I want to do it next year!  One of the worst things about it is I’m on the board.  I’m wondering if I step down from that for next year if it will improve tremendously??   There is a lot of stress, a lot of pressure, and a lot more work that goes along with that job.  Maybe things will get better if I give that up?

I’ve also taken on homeschooling another child this year – another high school student.  I had great expectations and envisioned how it would go but it’s not really going like I thought it would.  It’s not bad, it’s just different.  But different enough that I’m having a hard time with it.  I’m used to my own kids and it’s a totally different thing to take in someone else’s.

I really think after the end of this month that things will get a lot better.  You see football season will be over and I won’t be running all over town or having my kids gone almost every night of the week anymore.   I guess we’ll see!

Thanks for “listening” to my venting session.  I believe I sound a little crazier than I even thought after putting this in writing!  haha!